What is the meaning of life??

2006-07-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder is it really relevant to blog... then i think that i need somewhere to get it all out... fyp preliminary presentation finally over... i think we managed to bluff our way though... then also i think this sem i very slack or something... just dun seem to like to go to lectures and stuffs... feel that i damn lazy or something... then also feel that many things cannot be controlled by myself... feel like letting myself down... yet many times i feel i need to buckle up... haiz... also dunno what i am typing liao... many times i think sem exams is a killer yet there are many people who can do so well... 3 more weeks to exams... i just started studying... dunno whether can make it this sem... blahz....

2006-06-18T06:24:00.000-07:00

haiz... term test all over... but i think i will fail my ship stab... what to do... e-learning week everything i just finish then submit... still think not very relevant... then the fyp haven started yet... the lecturer haven tell us what we are suppose to do... haiz... life is in a mess i think... but who cares right... i mean what is the goal for our lives... i think it is just to live finish this lifetime... lolz... living your life to the fullest ba... this holiday i been doing nothing i guess... wasted about 3 weeks le... need to catch up with life...

2006-05-23T07:41:00.000-07:00

omg... term test round in the corner... wth... i only revise a little bit nia... how?? anyway... went to watch the da vinci code finally... really an interesting movie... with so much to debate on... hehe... i am a catholic but i am also someone who questions... maybe my faith is not that strong... well... wth... hehe... go le... need to study...

2006-05-12T22:11:00.000-07:00

sianz... all my phone data gonez... haiz... bo bian lor... anyway... mothers' day is around the corner... but why celebrate it only on this day?? everyday can also be mothers' day... everytime you hug your mother... she would feel the love you have for her... nowadays... i find that people are lacking the physical contact which tends to lead to the parents unable to communicate with their child... well... sometimes i find that i also dun have a very close relations with my mum... perhaps i am just thinking too much... i think i do not give my family enough love... enough of my time... maybe... a lot of people at my age is doing much better than i am in this aspect... haiz... fine... i bought something for my mum this mothers' day... but really i think just the thought counts not the physical things or any things you give your mother... she just wants you to grow up to be a better person...

i think it is better to treasure whatever you have now... do not wait for it to disappear to regret later... love yourself but love others more...

2006-05-10T22:37:00.000-07:00

sianz... later going to go check out wat's wrong with my phone... keep on auto shutdown... aiya... nothin much to update... just that the ship stab lecturer sux lor... spend most of the time saying stories lor... haiz... then somemore i dun understand what he is saying... haiz...

2006-05-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

haiz... today went to meet minyi and ziqian... so long never see them liao but then still spent about 2 hrs talking to some insurance person... waste so much of our precious time... omg... then today i only got gems lor... one and a half hours lecture nia... sianz lor... then got fyp briefing i also never go... went for the cls fo thingy... dun think very successful though... perhaps the time for planning is too short... what to do???

then i realise that my life seems so hectic... maybe i stress myself too much... then everyday i also feel that i got a lot of things to complete... but also dunno where these things come from... maybe really just too stress up ba... must try to relax le... or else sooner or later i will break down... sometimes i wonder maybe i think too much... asking myself too many questions which cannot be solved... but who knows... maybe everyone has their meaning of existance and mine is to think and think and think... well... i find myself looking for answers all the time... questioning every single thing...

2006-05-09T09:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i find that we ask too much of life... be content with what we have may be better... sometimes i find that my life is such a miserable one but then i would realise i have so many people around me who would care... Dying is a nature process so let it come naturally... In my whole 18 years i have been living... I realise i understand a lot of things... Perhaps i know too much for my age... but I know that if i be myself, i will go far... In my attachment, I see a lot of things happening around me... many people with different faces... how to deal with people to people relations... why do many people say they can't find a job... try looking in the newspaper... try finding out why... why others are hired but you are not... understand the thing that attitude or character is something more important than whether you are highly educated... not to say that if you are highly educated it would be much better... i learn of my shortcomings... but i am willing to try and change... maybe it is a tough option but it would make me a better person to be with... perhaps i am not trying hard enough to be someone better... but without even trying now... i would never know how my future would be like... in other words, i always wonder if i am not that good... losing faith in myself... do i look like i am confident? why do people assume that i can take the pressure? do i look like someone who do? omg... perhaps i am getting too stressed... but i dun have the time to relax anymore... i need to be stronger ba... mentally stronger to outlast myself... i think stop comparing myself with someone else... all i need to do is to win over myself... not anyone else... reaching my limits... but i think i am a lazy gal lor... haiz... forget it ba... keep typing and typing... it will never end...

"Trust is something I have forgotten but it is something I need to rely on..." one of my thoughts...

2005-12-05T23:56:00.000-08:00

omg... next week exam liao... then i still haven study yet... dotz... wan dan le... haiz... nothing to blog le lor... need to go study my maths le... omfg...

2005-11-29T21:19:00.000-08:00

another day has passed... yet i dunno what i am doing lor... maybe a lot of things are changing around me yet i am not... i feel like i need to change for the better but i dunno how to... perhaps not everyone would notice that sometimes things are rapidly changing... they are changing in a certain way... well... i just feel that i am not changing that much... perhaps i am getting more and more siao... or i getting more and more isolated... i aso dun understand it... gosh... need to stop thinking so much le... or else... i dunno what i am going towards anyway...soon things might change for the better... people might think that it is not very meaningful but it has a lot of meaning to me... so wat if ur parents is divorced... nothing really change around u...

2005-11-27T00:35:00.000-08:00

erm... went for og4 outing just now... had lots of fun... finally got to see them again... everyone change so much... not everyone change though... all the guys went to dye their hair... rebond their hair... perm their hair... hehe... lots of things happen in their lives too... but for now, they are all having their holidays... the guys are going to army soon... well... really had fun though... just spending time with them makes me feel so much relieved... hehe... erm... gotta sleep... ciaoz...

2005-11-22T14:25:00.000-08:00

erm... today nothing special... went back to huayi to leave something for mrs kong... hmm... well... i realise that i dun fuly understand the meaning of home... i feel that i dun have a home now... a home to call my own... currently my nanny's house can be considered my home but soon i am going to stop going there... then perhaps hua yi can be consider my home yet i dun get to go there often... the new home i am going to move to might be the one i am looking forward to... haiz... but now... i dun have one... and i wonder whether i even know the true meaning of home... perhaps i dun have a home for too long... times and times again when i am at my house now... i feel that it is not somewhere i belong... it might be just me or i am thinking too much...
question today: "anyone knows the true meaning of home??"

2005-11-21T14:42:00.000-08:00

erm... thinking that mrs kong is leaving huayi is really an upsetting thing... well... i dunno what my feelings are but just to say i need to mention how good she is to us the pioneer batch... perhaps not everyone in the school agrees but she is the best we can get in our life... she will cry with us... she will be there when u need her... now that she is leaving... it's our turn to cry hard... erm... really think this is weird that she is leaving then next time i go back cannot see her le... well... really must find one day to go back and see her... sometimes i wonder whether it's true that pple dun care that she's leaving... yet there are many who really dun care... it's surprising as to me... she is the one who has been supporting the school and us... now we have graduated... the thought of us going back to see her will really count... if only everyone understands...

2005-11-21T14:20:00.000-08:00

lolz... if only we get to move asap... really sia... so sian... got a lot of things need to be done... just hope to finish it asap too... omg... sometimes i wonder whether i know what i want... perhaps not... i also dunno what i thinking off... erm... troublesome right??? just dunno who i am really... maybe i have no self le... or maybe i dun feel like myself lately... haiz... anyway... my birthday coming yet i dun feel like it... maybe because term test is around my birthday... haiz... christmas also coming... like no mood sia... then somemore... yesterday for the mass... my reading not good sia... paused like two times... omg... wat a failure... like when i read... i see the wrong words or wat... eh... maybe not a very good lector sia... wat to do... still have to continue to read until i start working or wat... then for the choir... dun even have the time to go sia... my workshop end at bout 5... then very tired le lor... maybe i just giving myself a lot of excuses ba...

2005-11-18T10:55:00.000-08:00

erm... today only got one lesson... somemore from 8 to 10... have to wake up early sia... sianz... then later going to my bro school help him buy books... somemore... i got damn a lot of homework to do... then got a lot of coming projects... dotz... my life is crumbling apart liao... so long nv go out le... then school just start nia already going to have test next week... omg... how to survive... going to pengz soon... haiz... have to strengthen up then... geez... no time liao... going home...

2005-11-15T15:57:00.000-08:00

erm... nothing much to blog leh... my life is so boring one... today i realise the true meaning of sleeping while standing... hehe... slept while i was on the mrt... haiz... sometimes i realise i am going to move soon... then sometimes i still dun feel like these things are happening to me... next month i will stop going to my nanny's place... feels kind of weird thoug... but life have to go on... omg... if only... well... just to pen down some thoughts... i realise that life is so funny that everyone teases u about things that u dun even bother about... the true meaning of kinship... that sometimes some people could be forgotten and some people are shining so brightly... there are times when i wonder why certain things are what they are now...certain things like why the sky is blue... why is human emotions so hard to understand... the thought that someone actually care about u yet u don't know... well... come to think of it... i have nothing more to write about... anyway... gtg le... sianzation...

2005-11-10T12:46:00.000-08:00

erm... i understand that things may not go the way you want it to... yesterday exams was a disaster... paper 1 was so difficult and paper 2 was exactly the opposite... dunno whether i can even pass the exam.... then today i just dun have the mood to go to school but now i am here though... eh... nothing to talk about... i talk to my dad on the phone on tuesday... didn't seem to be able to relate to him anymore... but then, he's still my dad... feels like when i talk to him... i turn into another person... well... nothing else to write about... maybe hope all the og4 pple do well in their a's... may God bless them...

2005-11-07T14:42:00.000-08:00

today is just another day... monday blues got over me in the morning... miss em1 today... think i will try to catch up later at home... aiyass... so sian all the time... having mmit now... boring... doing crappy stuffs... then sometimes i wonder will i give up studying dmr... but my personality forbids it... well... nothing much already... signing off...

2005-11-04T15:45:00.000-08:00

haiz... today finally i came for the one lecture then they say cancel le... dotz... make me come all the way to school for nothing... btw... new semester started yet it still feels like holiday to me... haha... erm... nothing to blog about... yesterday receive a sms from applie say whether wan og4 outing... then i like suddenly feel so alive... haha... hope to see the guys soon.. miss them lots... then... another thing is my sec E4-04 gathering ba... like almost a year or two since we really gather as a class... really hope that will happen soon... opps... i just remember that i need to go apply for leave... gonez...

2005-11-02T15:44:00.000-08:00

erm... starting of a new semester... dun really hae much to blog... and also so long nv blog le... ehh... ok... let's talk bout wat's been happening in my life... eh... maybe most pple do not know, my parents are no longer married... i'm going to move house soon... i stop going to my church choir practices... i started to teach little kids tuition(they are so adorable)... my sec sch principal leaving the sch... perhaps soon i would have a lot of changes in my life... well... then there's also recent topic about racial dispute due to blogging... mosquitoes ruining our lives... pple going away and new pple coming to singapore... the bird virus attacks on US... all the things happening around us yet human beings are strong creatures whereby they have to overcome all of it... maybe sometimes when u feel alone or in despair, have u ever thought of the pple who sufferes more than all of us here in singapore... maybe human beings are still fragile at some point... however, sometimes, it is God who wants us to experience the life we are having now... perhaps there are really other pple in this world who suffers more than anyone of us... but they are still happily living in this world... erm... life is really a mystery yet we as human must live it to its fullest... ever thought of what would happened if the world is going to end tomorrow... wat are the things you might have lose if just a single bomb can kill a lot of pple... with terrorists growing rapidly, should we still be so materialistic? if anyone can tell me of their thoughts... feel free to drop a comment in the tagboard...

finally... this is just plain me typing crap i could think of... time to sign off... everyone take care... world peace...

2005-05-20T21:23:00.000-07:00

blah... sad... school's gonna start soon... my timetable's in a mess... hope when school starts i can make it properly sia... or else... i really sad liao lor...

2005-05-05T11:40:00.000-07:00

so long nv blog le... haha... omg... thank god that i passed every single modules this semester... this few weeks i like going crazy waiting for the results... these few weeks have been busy... and slacking... and still rusting... and rotting... i so hope school reopens soon!!!! haha... i think i going siao soon... blah... tomorrow would be another busy day...

2005-04-17T22:53:00.000-07:00

well... today go out with my dear gong zhu and qian... haha... she so mei... anyway... think talk a lot of crap today lah.... then also she buy boxer for her "er zi".... then also bought her pink converse shoes... haha... best lor... anyway... i had fun... hope to see ya all soon!!! (",)

2005-04-12T02:17:00.000-07:00

Perhaps this is really weird but then, I still need to express myself. Due to the limitation of my English language, I may be unable to express myself properly. After graduating from Hua Yi for 1 year plus, the truth is that I really miss the school a lot, everyone and everything. Ultimately, I realize I could shout out loud that I love Hua Yi from the bottom of my heart.

Ever since my first step into Hua Yi, the principal and all the teachers welcome us in with their warmth and care. Within this 4 year in school, I have seen the amount of hard work, their hearts, and their souls the teachers put in for us. Every work that we do, the teachers are doing it 40 times harder. The amount of time they spent on us rather than that to their families. How busy everyone was. Even with all the crap we put up for them, they never give up on us. Being the first batch of students in the new campus, I truthfully feel that we are closer to everyone in school, perhaps for me especially. The school has taught me not only stuffs from the books but also values of life.

The school has been my greatest support through the dullest times of my life. Everyone; the principal, the vice-principals, the teachers who have taught me, the teachers whom I know, plays bits and pieces of role in my life. Perhaps nobody knows it but to me, it is vital to my life. And without it, I may not be who I am today. The personal problems were rather diminished as soon as I step into school. The truth that I am neither an outstanding student nor a hardworking student, they never give up on me. In the final 2 years of my school life, the principal, my teachers have given me tremendous support for my studies. Therefore, I want to thank every single people, whether teaching or non-teaching staffs, for the things you might have done to change my life.

2005-04-11T17:30:00.000-07:00

sian... i feel that my life will be better soon... thank Lord for everything you have done in my life... the last electrics exam was not bad... hope i could do well for this exam... and for the coming MEK1... so much to study sia... hope i can memorise all man... so tired nowadays... do nothing also tired... haha... nothing much happening around me... the pope has been brought back to the Lord so must be happy for him... still must decrease more of myself to let Lord to increase in my life... well... all the best to my friends taking exams this week...

2005-04-08T15:00:00.000-07:00

haiz... life is full of mysteries... am i being myself? i feel that i am moving away from the world and into a world occupied only by myself... am i losing myself?

In the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit

Dear Lord,

I am so confused... I need to be stronger... I need to decrease myself and increase You in my life... Please make me stronger... I need to be forgiven for all the bad things I have done... my attitude at home... people hurt by the things I have done and said... Please make me a better person... A better daughter... A better sister... I am so sorry for making my mum so upset... for being such an ungrateful daughter... for taking her for granted... I also don't know why I am like that... but I need to change and Lord... Please help me to be better... I am sorry for treating my brother badly sometimes... I need to know how to converse with him... to understand his feelings... Am I the only one affected? No... but everyone thinks I am the stronger one... I need Your care... my Lord... I need to be a stronger person to take care of my mum and my brother... I need more of You in my life... I have not been a good daughter or a good sister... nor am I a good daughter in You... Please please forgive for all the sins I have done... please make me a better person, a stronger person... please help me to change my attitude... my character... Lord, I thank You for accepting me back into Your family and finding me after I am lost in the darkness... I thank You for being there for me when I needed You the most... I am so sorry that I once forgotten Your love... The events in my life has lead me away... the Satan has lead me away from You... I thank You that you have saved my soul again... I promise to be more understanding and resist the temptations around me... Amen...

2005-04-03T20:19:00.000-07:00

hey... just finish my first time reading during mass... my heart was like jumping out off me... once on the "stage", i really feel that my heart is no longer there... just playing what i have remember out like a recorder... haha... at least, finally, it is all over... but then already got 2 more readings... still panic like hell... hope the other 2 readings would be the same as this first one... God bless... (",)

2005-03-29T22:13:00.000-08:00

haiz... so long never blog liao... going to jiayou for my coming semester exams... anyway... things are going to be over soon... this sunday going to read a reading in church... a bit stress but i will do my best... well... really nothing to talk about... my life is just so plain and boring...

2005-02-21T16:34:00.000-08:00

wah!!! so sian... my life like so not interesting... anyway, saw my og4 gals and guys at love fiesta at jjc on sat!!! so happy to see them... miss them like hell... spent almost the whole day there... had a lot of fun and then also, saw marie's bf in person... they suit eachother well if u see longer... then after the long day, walk back with celine then found some money on the ground. we dunno wat to do with it so went back to the police post near jj to report lor... walk like damn far... i tink i getting suay lor... my bike kana stolen, my bro's phone kana stolen also... kns lor... so pissed off... i feel that i nv live my life to the fullest leh... or is it i am already... i got responsibility at home i need to take care of... gotta jiayou wor... haiz... y do i suddenly feel so upset leh?? life so much different now... my course is so so sian leh!!!! haha... gotta go... maybe blog later again...

2005-02-18T11:52:00.000-08:00

hehe... today finish the rwp presentation... kind of long winded... haha... cannot even finish my presentation... but did my best i tink... anyway... on wed night, went to church to sing for the mass... then yesterday went to church to practice songs for the mass this sunday... today suppose to go to church to clean up... but dunno whether can make it or not... well... try my best then... tomorrow gonna see my jj friends... so kind of excited... hehe... gtg... lessons gonna end soon...

2005-02-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year... Look... doesn't she look so kawaii...
today is the first day of the new term... and also vday... spent my day doing nothing though... haha... took jinghui out for her regular walk... then the day just passed... hope couples have a great day... and singles being happy as always... need to go watch desperate housewives... (",)

2005-02-13T02:41:00.000-08:00

the long week has pass by... nothing really happened... on cny eve, the mass at malaysia was great... although cannot really hear the choir sing cos got one guy behind me sing so "soft"... my first time giving an offering during mass... had a great time as at malaysia, u get to see fireworks and set fireworks... so cool man... anyway... cny mass was great... our choir did our best and had good reviews from many people... father ho was aso in the choir, crashing... was extremely tired after my visit to my grandma's house... help in the kitchen for a while... then eat lunch and blah blah blah... after that, we went to my baomu's house... sat there for a while... actually want to wait for jinghui de... but need to rush to my second aunt's house... so nv get to see her in her cute attire... on the way to her house, i had a quick nap on the mrt... finally, my last destination of the day, we ate and watch our cousin's wedding video... didn't finish the video but it was great... the second day of cny wasn't interesting... the third day of cny... my baomu, her daughter, jinghui, my mum and me went to her second daughter's home... finally saw jinghui after 3 whole days... sat there like for 2 to 3 hours... eat lunch prepared by her... yesterday wasn't interesting again... hehe... my week is going to end soon... school's gonna start tomorrow... hope my term test turns out well... (",)

2005-02-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

Anyway, this is Jinghui when she is one year old...

2005-02-04T00:02:00.000-08:00

wth... the pssr test mocking our intelligence sia... even primary school people aso noe how to do... anyway... cny eve going to jb... haven buy new year clothes... ah... sian... tired aso... then today choir practice for 4 masses... then i got to read a reading in the coming april... a bit stress liao... scared that day do something wrong how... hope God will give me the strength to do the job properly... anyway, so sian!!!!!!!!

"Today is a brighter day then the others in my life..."

2005-02-03T15:11:00.000-08:00

finally, test over liao... all the stress all gone for now... things are also much better after i heard the news... lolz... kind of happy yet still have some hesitations... dunno whether the decision is right... lame ah... ah.... miss my friends... sian... haha... going to love myself more aso... dun tink i can sleep well nowadays... haha...

"Live each day to your fullest..."

"Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."
Hebrews 12:2

2005-01-30T11:36:00.000-08:00

haiz... haiz... i think i going to peng kui soon... cannot concentrate in doing everything... ah... i miss my friends so so much... really hope i can get to see them during cny eve at huayi... miss og4 guys more... ah... must really get them out for an outing asap... haiz... maybe after their 'a' lvls ba... then they more free... hehe... dunno how to study my mek... electrics study almost finish liao... pssr aso dunno wat to study... and test is like two days away... no point me being so panic... gambatte ba... aso hope things would be much much better soon... lalalala... better be settled soon... affecting my life like hell...

"Always think that others are suffering more than you... Then life would feel much better..."

2005-01-26T23:41:00.000-08:00

die liao... tuesday mek, wednesday ele... then i haven study yet... actually got study a bit lah but sibei forgetful de... sian... nothing to write lah... very fan inside...

"As time goes by, I hope I would be much stronger..." something that i hope i can achieve...

most importantly, i really hope things would be much better soon...

2005-01-23T22:02:00.000-08:00

Term test coming soon... yet i have no mood to study... well... hope i can jiayou in this coming week... anyways... i spend about two days at malaysia... was at my godmum's house... actually when my bro say dun wan to go home and stay, i was very on for the idea... didn't wan to face the problem... well... i hope i got the inner strength in me to face the problem... maybe i going back to huayi to study or just sit at the stairs... i miss the flight of steps... miss everyone in my class... miss everyone i noe... all the things i have done to anyone tat is wrong... all the things that i said out inpulse... everyone's feeling i have hurt... i hope for forgiveness... please please tell me where i have done wrong... no matter whatever problems anyone have with me, just tell me... Directly... any unsolved problems with me... just come back to me... i noe i have hurt a lot of pple with my words and actions... i hope all of you would tell me when i go overboard... i hope not to hurt more pple with my bad bad attitude... my bad bad temper... i noe how it feels like... so so so sorry if i ever did tat to u...

2005-01-19T12:46:00.000-08:00

sometimes... i wonder... how the event in the past is past down to us... well... i am really not good at word... but i feel like writing something...

Believe in what you believe in
Aim to be who you really are
Respect those who respect you
Be who you really are
Love those who give them your love

sometimes... i really wish i could be a child again... however... nothing can change the past so i must move on with it...

"Those who believe in whatever they do are the ones who gets back double of what they give..."

2005-01-18T21:00:00.000-08:00

frustrating... the stupid rwp killing my brain cells... aiya... resting now to blog... very tired wor... dunno how to do... ah!!!!! STRESS!!!

"Just looking happy doesn't mean one is..."

2005-01-16T22:39:00.000-08:00

lolz... today i had a new experience... i went to the altar to read the readings... no lah... just testing volume only... but i still not experience lor... cannot really go up and read... singing still got problem... lolz... hope will get better... aiya... tomorrow got sch... go slp le...

"Moonlight tends to look upsetting if you feel so too..."

2005-01-15T22:26:00.000-08:00

yesterday i stayed at my babysitter's house... i dye my hair again... but the after colour was the same... so angry... the box cheat me... wanted a lighter colour... anyway, today i trimmed my hair by a bit... dun tink pple can see it aso... went for the sports elective in the afternoon... cycle until my leg ache... now my whole body ache... so tired... i tink i go slp liao...

"Love is a complicating thing..."

2005-01-13T22:19:00.000-08:00

lolz... today got extra electrics tuition in the morning... so tiring... haha... got that 2pid mek... make us wear boiler suit for one hour he also happy... haha... afternoon got programming... dun understand anything cos nv come on tuesday... brought jinghui for her routine walk... then at night went for choir practice... now i may got another job... reading the readings out to the crowd... a bit scared but i tink i can do it... hehe... may god bless me and my family... bless the pple who lost their family in the tsunami and hope they would grow stronger and go on living their lives...

"Sometime life is so unpredictable...
it's as fragile as glass...
but after all the events in life...
people will be much more stronger..."
something i just thought of... well... i will end here then...

2005-01-12T22:15:00.000-08:00

today i went for ele lab... my bell failed to ring... so upsetting... i burn myself again... afternoon had pst... today practical... i was thrilled as today i was given the chance to drive the powerboat... hehe... must really get my ppcdl licence soon... so fun... another tiring day... so stressed up... when i got back home, i brought jinghui to the playground... it is like an everyday routine... have to bring her for her walk... hehe... she was playing happily... well... the 10pm show on channel u getting interesting... must make time to watch... erm... nothing more liao...

"Life is more enriching if you make it true..." I say one... hehe...

2005-01-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

today is so tiring... i had workshop in the morning... then i got hit by one of the metal pieces... a small tiny burn on my hand... then afternoon i pon lessons and go to poly marina for the cfp 2005... miss the programming lesson... i had 3 power boat ride... one rescue boat ride... had great fun but was drained of my energy... well... today just another day for me...

2005-01-08T16:38:00.000-08:00

Erm... I realise that I can't be online everyday to blog... So sorry that I haven blog lately... Well... Let me recall what has happened this week... Monday... Nothing special... Go school today then came back at 1 plus... But I bought my niece Jinghui to my sec sch... Since it is the first day of sch, my teachers are quite busy... All of them thought she was adorable... Nothing really happened... Since Mr Salleh, Ms Mei and Ms Leong is not there already, three of my teachers is gone... Tuesday... Morning was terrible... I miss my bus and was late for workshop... got scolded... Working with the lathe is tiring but fun... afternoon was the most boring lesson of my semester... had pssr and programming... Another day passed, and the next day was cfp 2005 for my sch... I was send to group d with rin and v.j... belinda was aso in the grp... quite surprising... all the volunteers are from dmr... my grp had so much questions for dns which almost had me drown... hehe... but i am still alive and kicking... afternoon, we went to poly marina for water activities... was quite boring until the power boatt ride... my boat and another boat was out of fuel... we tried to row it back while help is on its way... it was quite an exciting day but i was so so tired... thursday was the day i was waiting for... I was going back to jj for jj nite... actually i was not feeling well but i still went... saw charlene, qian yu, mich, applie, apple, andre and a lot of other pple... marie was there with me until she had to go... had great fun and the new dances were extremely cute... well... hope all of them rest well and drink a lot of water to recover from their sore throat... yesterday was the day i stayed at home and do nothing... i woke up with a swollen ankle... cannot even move... was sliding around the house with my chair... lolz... but i had discuss my work with my grp members online... wow.... i have written so much... haiz... I miss the guys in og4... hope to see ya in the outing soon...

Resolutions

2005-01-02T14:25:00.000-08:00

Seems a little later for resolutions... But still, I have to list one...

1. Studies - Well... Just the first semester of poly, I already failed two modules... Slack too much... no use regretting now... So for the coming year, I hope I would stop slacking and concentrate in my studies... Must at least get this diploma and get it right... Already got bad record le...

2. Home - Erm... Hope things will be better after it is over... And hope it would be a quick one... So I would start a happy year... All I can do is to give my mum all the moral support she needs...
All the love that I can give her... Also to my brother... I will try my best to keep him clear of what he is doing...

3. A Him - Haiz... Same as every year... Hope to find someone who dote me more than I do... Maybe giving eachother the love we need... Although life is fragile, at least got him there for me...

4. Friends - Really want to keep my contact with all my sec friends and og4 members... They have been great just appearing in my life... Treasuring them is the only thing I can give them... They are important to me... And also, relations with my poly friends also have improved... I think... Well... Hope new and old friends will keep in contact then... If you all got any problems, you can come to me...

5. Church - Just join the chinese choir in church... Don't know why I have the sudden urge to join... But since I am now in, I will do my best to sing out the heavenly praises of the Lord...

6. Save more money - Need to stop spending so much... Life is different now... And also need to buy presents for those people who is important to me... Sorry if I didn't get you a present last year...

Okay... cannot be too greedy... too many resolutions... yet never complete... Well... Have a great year ahead...

Nothing really...

2005-01-02T02:00:00.000-08:00

Erm... Nothing to type really... what to say?? Events of 2004 has been happy and sad... Many incident has happened yet we are still strong as one... For me, the greatest thing that have happened to me is the first three months jc... The friends I have made... And also, OG4 Rox... Many good memories and bad... But life have to go on... Poly life is a lot more different then secondary... First semester, I was trying the hell to fit in... But, I slack too much and failed two modules... This semester, repeating modules and forwarding some, trying my very best to cope with all the work... I miss the people in OG4 so so much... maybe the fun we have... the naughty things we have done... Celebrations together... Going to movie together... Walking through the big, horrible grass field... the afterward reunion we had... Haiz... life isn't the same... but it has to move on... Happy New Year to all... Gambatte nei...