Ayumi Hamasaki______________

Name: Chong Ming Hui, Mildred
Nicknames: Mel aka evilyumi
School: currently in sp singapore maritime academy
Age: sweet 18
Gender: Female
Status: S & A
>> I adores Ayumi Hamasaki...
>> I adores OG4 yaya sisters...
>> I adores my family...
>> I adores SMA marketing force...
>> I adores all my friends...
>> I adores Beyonce Knowles...
>> I adores my schools....
>> I Abhors backstabbers...
>> I Abhors liars...
>> I Abhors fakers...
>> I Abhors people who act cute...
>> I Wish to outshine myself...
>> I Wish that my family would be happy always...
>> I Wish that my friends are for forever...
>> I Wish someone who knows me more than i do...
>> I Wish that my school work would improve...
>> I Wish for WORLD PEACE!!!

You like the ones that understand you.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.But little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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You are the Spirit of Hope. Whenever someone is
feeling down, they merely have to think of you
to make them happy again. You have the ability
to simply radiate happiness. You can make
friends quickly because your strong point is
your amazingly friendly nature which naturally
people want to be with. You think about the
best in everything, a total optimist, you won't
have any trouble getting a worthy person to
share your life with!

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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You are the romantic kiss. Your kisses are
passionate and spontanious, he takes you in his
arms and ravages your mouth. Luck you!!

What is your kiss? (Girls only)
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Your true angel is Deep/Sad. you're sorta depressed
but that's because there are so many things
churning in your mind. you can never keep your
mind fresh and cleared. its always thinking
about problems

Your Unknown Angel Inside (amazing pics, girlz only, and PLEASE read memo first!)
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The Haunted One You are the haunted beauty whose life is marred by
sadness. You are dreamy, delicate, gentle and
melancholy. As tragically beautiful as any
Shakespearean heroine, you possess a doe-eyed
fragility that is strangely enchanting. What's so scary about you: There is something
rather unsettling about your fragile beauty.
You are like a dream that no one can grasp. Your gemstone: Moonstone Your Moon: Ice Moon (January)

Which Beautiful Vampiress are You? (For Girls! - Gothic Anime Pics!)
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When it's raining, what type of tears are you crying? (With pics)

You cry tears of escape. You might be a physically abused person who can't escape the clutches of harm. You wish that you could run away and forget everything, but you can't because every torment that is waiting for you isn't letting you. People look at you differently and try to figure out what is wrong, but they can never seem to figure it out. You probably like the day time or early morning more because you are away form everything that has hurt you. You should try to tell people what is wrong before it is to late and you can't tell anyone ever again.
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sometimes i wonder is it really relevant to blog... then i think that i need somewhere to get it all out... fyp preliminary presentation finally over... i think we managed to bluff our way though... then also i think this sem i very slack or something... just dun seem to like to go to lectures and stuffs... feel that i damn lazy or something... then also feel that many things cannot be controlled by myself... feel like letting myself down... yet many times i feel i need to buckle up... haiz... also dunno what i am typing liao... many times i think sem exams is a killer yet there are many people who can do so well... 3 more weeks to exams... i just started studying... dunno whether can make it this sem... blahz....

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 8:33 PM

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haiz... term test all over... but i think i will fail my ship stab... what to do... e-learning week everything i just finish then submit... still think not very relevant... then the fyp haven started yet... the lecturer haven tell us what we are suppose to do... haiz... life is in a mess i think... but who cares right... i mean what is the goal for our lives... i think it is just to live finish this lifetime... lolz... living your life to the fullest ba... this holiday i been doing nothing i guess... wasted about 3 weeks le... need to catch up with life...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 6:24 AM

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omg... term test round in the corner... wth... i only revise a little bit nia... how?? anyway... went to watch the da vinci code finally... really an interesting movie... with so much to debate on... hehe... i am a catholic but i am also someone who questions... maybe my faith is not that strong... well... wth... hehe... go le... need to study...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 7:41 AM

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sianz... all my phone data gonez... haiz... bo bian lor... anyway... mothers' day is around the corner... but why celebrate it only on this day?? everyday can also be mothers' day... everytime you hug your mother... she would feel the love you have for her... nowadays... i find that people are lacking the physical contact which tends to lead to the parents unable to communicate with their child... well... sometimes i find that i also dun have a very close relations with my mum... perhaps i am just thinking too much... i think i do not give my family enough love... enough of my time... maybe... a lot of people at my age is doing much better than i am in this aspect... haiz... fine... i bought something for my mum this mothers' day... but really i think just the thought counts not the physical things or any things you give your mother... she just wants you to grow up to be a better person...

i think it is better to treasure whatever you have now... do not wait for it to disappear to regret later... love yourself but love others more...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 10:11 PM

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sianz... later going to go check out wat's wrong with my phone... keep on auto shutdown... aiya... nothin much to update... just that the ship stab lecturer sux lor... spend most of the time saying stories lor... haiz... then somemore i dun understand what he is saying... haiz...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 10:37 PM

haiz... today went to meet minyi and ziqian... so long never see them liao but then still spent about 2 hrs talking to some insurance person... waste so much of our precious time... omg... then today i only got gems lor... one and a half hours lecture nia... sianz lor... then got fyp briefing i also never go... went for the cls fo thingy... dun think very successful though... perhaps the time for planning is too short... what to do???

then i realise that my life seems so hectic... maybe i stress myself too much... then everyday i also feel that i got a lot of things to complete... but also dunno where these things come from... maybe really just too stress up ba... must try to relax le... or else sooner or later i will break down... sometimes i wonder maybe i think too much... asking myself too many questions which cannot be solved... but who knows... maybe everyone has their meaning of existance and mine is to think and think and think... well... i find myself looking for answers all the time... questioning every single thing...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 8:34 AM

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sometimes i find that we ask too much of life... be content with what we have may be better... sometimes i find that my life is such a miserable one but then i would realise i have so many people around me who would care... Dying is a nature process so let it come naturally... In my whole 18 years i have been living... I realise i understand a lot of things... Perhaps i know too much for my age... but I know that if i be myself, i will go far... In my attachment, I see a lot of things happening around me... many people with different faces... how to deal with people to people relations... why do many people say they can't find a job... try looking in the newspaper... try finding out why... why others are hired but you are not... understand the thing that attitude or character is something more important than whether you are highly educated... not to say that if you are highly educated it would be much better... i learn of my shortcomings... but i am willing to try and change... maybe it is a tough option but it would make me a better person to be with... perhaps i am not trying hard enough to be someone better... but without even trying now... i would never know how my future would be like... in other words, i always wonder if i am not that good... losing faith in myself... do i look like i am confident? why do people assume that i can take the pressure? do i look like someone who do? omg... perhaps i am getting too stressed... but i dun have the time to relax anymore... i need to be stronger ba... mentally stronger to outlast myself... i think stop comparing myself with someone else... all i need to do is to win over myself... not anyone else... reaching my limits... but i think i am a lazy gal lor... haiz... forget it ba... keep typing and typing... it will never end...

"Trust is something I have forgotten but it is something I need to rely on..." one of my thoughts...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 9:33 AM

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omg... next week exam liao... then i still haven study yet... dotz... wan dan le... haiz... nothing to blog le lor... need to go study my maths le... omfg...

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"Trust is something I have forgotten but it is something I need to rely on..." one of my thoughts...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 9:33 AM

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omg... next week exam liao... then i still haven study yet... dotz... wan dan le... haiz... nothing to blog le lor... need to go study my maths le... omfg...

*{ Ayumi Rocks }* @ 11:56 PM

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