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another day has passed... yet i dunno what i am doing lor... maybe a lot of things are changing around me yet i am not... i feel like i need to change for the better but i dunno how to... perhaps not everyone would notice that sometimes things are rapidly changing... they are changing in a certain way... well... i just feel that i am not changing that much... perhaps i am getting more and more siao... or i getting more and more isolated... i aso dun understand it... gosh... need to stop thinking so much le... or else... i dunno what i am going towards anyway...soon things might change for the better... people might think that it is not very meaningful but it has a lot of meaning to me... so wat if ur parents is divorced... nothing really change around u...
Sunday, November 27, 2005
erm... went for og4 outing just now... had lots of fun... finally got to see them again... everyone change so much... not everyone change though... all the guys went to dye their hair... rebond their hair... perm their hair... hehe... lots of things happen in their lives too... but for now, they are all having their holidays... the guys are going to army soon... well... really had fun though... just spending time with them makes me feel so much relieved... hehe... erm... gotta sleep... ciaoz...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
erm... today nothing special... went back to huayi to leave something for mrs kong... hmm... well... i realise that i dun fuly understand the meaning of home... i feel that i dun have a home now... a home to call my own... currently my nanny's house can be considered my home but soon i am going to stop going there... then perhaps hua yi can be consider my home yet i dun get to go there often... the new home i am going to move to might be the one i am looking forward to... haiz... but now... i dun have one... and i wonder whether i even know the true meaning of home... perhaps i dun have a home for too long... times and times again when i am at my house now... i feel that it is not somewhere i belong... it might be just me or i am thinking too much...
question today: "anyone knows the true meaning of home??"
Monday, November 21, 2005
erm... thinking that mrs kong is leaving huayi is really an upsetting thing... well... i dunno what my feelings are but just to say i need to mention how good she is to us the pioneer batch... perhaps not everyone in the school agrees but she is the best we can get in our life... she will cry with us... she will be there when u need her... now that she is leaving... it's our turn to cry hard... erm... really think this is weird that she is leaving then next time i go back cannot see her le... well... really must find one day to go back and see her... sometimes i wonder whether it's true that pple dun care that she's leaving... yet there are many who really dun care... it's surprising as to me... she is the one who has been supporting the school and us... now we have graduated... the thought of us going back to see her will really count... if only everyone understands...
lolz... if only we get to move asap... really sia... so sian... got a lot of things need to be done... just hope to finish it asap too... omg... sometimes i wonder whether i know what i want... perhaps not... i also dunno what i thinking off... erm... troublesome right??? just dunno who i am really... maybe i have no self le... or maybe i dun feel like myself lately... haiz... anyway... my birthday coming yet i dun feel like it... maybe because term test is around my birthday... haiz... christmas also coming... like no mood sia... then somemore... yesterday for the mass... my reading not good sia... paused like two times... omg... wat a failure... like when i read... i see the wrong words or wat... eh... maybe not a very good lector sia... wat to do... still have to continue to read until i start working or wat... then for the choir... dun even have the time to go sia... my workshop end at bout 5... then very tired le lor... maybe i just giving myself a lot of excuses ba...
Friday, November 18, 2005
erm... today only got one lesson... somemore from 8 to 10... have to wake up early sia... sianz... then later going to my bro school help him buy books... somemore... i got damn a lot of homework to do... then got a lot of coming projects... dotz... my life is crumbling apart liao... so long nv go out le... then school just start nia already going to have test next week... omg... how to survive... going to pengz soon... haiz... have to strengthen up then... geez... no time liao... going home...
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
erm... nothing much to blog leh... my life is so boring one... today i realise the true meaning of sleeping while standing... hehe... slept while i was on the mrt... haiz... sometimes i realise i am going to move soon... then sometimes i still dun feel like these things are happening to me... next month i will stop going to my nanny's place... feels kind of weird thoug... but life have to go on... omg... if only... well... just to pen down some thoughts... i realise that life is so funny that everyone teases u about things that u dun even bother about... the true meaning of kinship... that sometimes some people could be forgotten and some people are shining so brightly... there are times when i wonder why certain things are what they are now...certain things like why the sky is blue... why is human emotions so hard to understand... the thought that someone actually care about u yet u don't know... well... come to think of it... i have nothing more to write about... anyway... gtg le... sianzation...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
erm... i understand that things may not go the way you want it to... yesterday exams was a disaster... paper 1 was so difficult and paper 2 was exactly the opposite... dunno whether i can even pass the exam.... then today i just dun have the mood to go to school but now i am here though... eh... nothing to talk about... i talk to my dad on the phone on tuesday... didn't seem to be able to relate to him anymore... but then, he's still my dad... feels like when i talk to him... i turn into another person... well... nothing else to write about... maybe hope all the og4 pple do well in their a's... may God bless them...
Monday, November 07, 2005
today is just another day... monday blues got over me in the morning... miss em1 today... think i will try to catch up later at home... aiyass... so sian all the time... having mmit now... boring... doing crappy stuffs... then sometimes i wonder will i give up studying dmr... but my personality forbids it... well... nothing much already... signing off...
Friday, November 04, 2005
haiz... today finally i came for the one lecture then they say cancel le... dotz... make me come all the way to school for nothing... btw... new semester started yet it still feels like holiday to me... haha... erm... nothing to blog about... yesterday receive a sms from applie say whether wan og4 outing... then i like suddenly feel so alive... haha... hope to see the guys soon.. miss them lots... then... another thing is my sec E4-04 gathering ba... like almost a year or two since we really gather as a class... really hope that will happen soon... opps... i just remember that i need to go apply for leave... gonez...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
erm... starting of a new semester... dun really hae much to blog... and also so long nv blog le... ehh... ok... let's talk bout wat's been happening in my life... eh... maybe most pple do not know, my parents are no longer married... i'm going to move house soon... i stop going to my church choir practices... i started to teach little kids tuition(they are so adorable)... my sec sch principal leaving the sch... perhaps soon i would have a lot of changes in my life... well... then there's also recent topic about racial dispute due to blogging... mosquitoes ruining our lives... pple going away and new pple coming to singapore... the bird virus attacks on US... all the things happening around us yet human beings are strong creatures whereby they have to overcome all of it... maybe sometimes when u feel alone or in despair, have u ever thought of the pple who sufferes more than all of us here in singapore... maybe human beings are still fragile at some point... however, sometimes, it is God who wants us to experience the life we are having now... perhaps there are really other pple in this world who suffers more than anyone of us... but they are still happily living in this world... erm... life is really a mystery yet we as human must live it to its fullest... ever thought of what would happened if the world is going to end tomorrow... wat are the things you might have lose if just a single bomb can kill a lot of pple... with terrorists growing rapidly, should we still be so materialistic? if anyone can tell me of their thoughts... feel free to drop a comment in the tagboard...
finally... this is just plain me typing crap i could think of... time to sign off... everyone take care... world peace...
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
another day has passed... yet i dunno what i am doing lor... maybe a lot of things are changing around me yet i am not... i feel like i need to change for the better but i dunno how to... perhaps not everyone would notice that sometimes things are rapidly changing... they are changing in a certain way... well... i just feel that i am not changing that much... perhaps i am getting more and more siao... or i getting more and more isolated... i aso dun understand it... gosh... need to stop thinking so much le... or else... i dunno what i am going towards anyway...soon things might change for the better... people might think that it is not very meaningful but it has a lot of meaning to me... so wat if ur parents is divorced... nothing really change around u...
Sunday, November 27, 2005
erm... went for og4 outing just now... had lots of fun... finally got to see them again... everyone change so much... not everyone change though... all the guys went to dye their hair... rebond their hair... perm their hair... hehe... lots of things happen in their lives too... but for now, they are all having their holidays... the guys are going to army soon... well... really had fun though... just spending time with them makes me feel so much relieved... hehe... erm... gotta sleep... ciaoz...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
erm... today nothing special... went back to huayi to leave something for mrs kong... hmm... well... i realise that i dun fuly understand the meaning of home... i feel that i dun have a home now... a home to call my own... currently my nanny's house can be considered my home but soon i am going to stop going there... then perhaps hua yi can be consider my home yet i dun get to go there often... the new home i am going to move to might be the one i am looking forward to... haiz... but now... i dun have one... and i wonder whether i even know the true meaning of home... perhaps i dun have a home for too long... times and times again when i am at my house now... i feel that it is not somewhere i belong... it might be just me or i am thinking too much...
question today: "anyone knows the true meaning of home??"
Monday, November 21, 2005
erm... thinking that mrs kong is leaving huayi is really an upsetting thing... well... i dunno what my feelings are but just to say i need to mention how good she is to us the pioneer batch... perhaps not everyone in the school agrees but she is the best we can get in our life... she will cry with us... she will be there when u need her... now that she is leaving... it's our turn to cry hard... erm... really think this is weird that she is leaving then next time i go back cannot see her le... well... really must find one day to go back and see her... sometimes i wonder whether it's true that pple dun care that she's leaving... yet there are many who really dun care... it's surprising as to me... she is the one who has been supporting the school and us... now we have graduated... the thought of us going back to see her will really count... if only everyone understands...
lolz... if only we get to move asap... really sia... so sian... got a lot of things need to be done... just hope to finish it asap too... omg... sometimes i wonder whether i know what i want... perhaps not... i also dunno what i thinking off... erm... troublesome right??? just dunno who i am really... maybe i have no self le... or maybe i dun feel like myself lately... haiz... anyway... my birthday coming yet i dun feel like it... maybe because term test is around my birthday... haiz... christmas also coming... like no mood sia... then somemore... yesterday for the mass... my reading not good sia... paused like two times... omg... wat a failure... like when i read... i see the wrong words or wat... eh... maybe not a very good lector sia... wat to do... still have to continue to read until i start working or wat... then for the choir... dun even have the time to go sia... my workshop end at bout 5... then very tired le lor... maybe i just giving myself a lot of excuses ba...
Friday, November 18, 2005
erm... today only got one lesson... somemore from 8 to 10... have to wake up early sia... sianz... then later going to my bro school help him buy books... somemore... i got damn a lot of homework to do... then got a lot of coming projects... dotz... my life is crumbling apart liao... so long nv go out le... then school just start nia already going to have test next week... omg... how to survive... going to pengz soon... haiz... have to strengthen up then... geez... no time liao... going home...
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
erm... nothing much to blog leh... my life is so boring one... today i realise the true meaning of sleeping while standing... hehe... slept while i was on the mrt... haiz... sometimes i realise i am going to move soon... then sometimes i still dun feel like these things are happening to me... next month i will stop going to my nanny's place... feels kind of weird thoug... but life have to go on... omg... if only... well... just to pen down some thoughts... i realise that life is so funny that everyone teases u about things that u dun even bother about... the true meaning of kinship... that sometimes some people could be forgotten and some people are shining so brightly... there are times when i wonder why certain things are what they are now...certain things like why the sky is blue... why is human emotions so hard to understand... the thought that someone actually care about u yet u don't know... well... come to think of it... i have nothing more to write about... anyway... gtg le... sianzation...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
erm... i understand that things may not go the way you want it to... yesterday exams was a disaster... paper 1 was so difficult and paper 2 was exactly the opposite... dunno whether i can even pass the exam.... then today i just dun have the mood to go to school but now i am here though... eh... nothing to talk about... i talk to my dad on the phone on tuesday... didn't seem to be able to relate to him anymore... but then, he's still my dad... feels like when i talk to him... i turn into another person... well... nothing else to write about... maybe hope all the og4 pple do well in their a's... may God bless them...
Monday, November 07, 2005
today is just another day... monday blues got over me in the morning... miss em1 today... think i will try to catch up later at home... aiyass... so sian all the time... having mmit now... boring... doing crappy stuffs... then sometimes i wonder will i give up studying dmr... but my personality forbids it... well... nothing much already... signing off...
Friday, November 04, 2005
haiz... today finally i came for the one lecture then they say cancel le... dotz... make me come all the way to school for nothing... btw... new semester started yet it still feels like holiday to me... haha... erm... nothing to blog about... yesterday receive a sms from applie say whether wan og4 outing... then i like suddenly feel so alive... haha... hope to see the guys soon.. miss them lots... then... another thing is my sec E4-04 gathering ba... like almost a year or two since we really gather as a class... really hope that will happen soon... opps... i just remember that i need to go apply for leave... gonez...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
erm... starting of a new semester... dun really hae much to blog... and also so long nv blog le... ehh... ok... let's talk bout wat's been happening in my life... eh... maybe most pple do not know, my parents are no longer married... i'm going to move house soon... i stop going to my church choir practices... i started to teach little kids tuition(they are so adorable)... my sec sch principal leaving the sch... perhaps soon i would have a lot of changes in my life... well... then there's also recent topic about racial dispute due to blogging... mosquitoes ruining our lives... pple going away and new pple coming to singapore... the bird virus attacks on US... all the things happening around us yet human beings are strong creatures whereby they have to overcome all of it... maybe sometimes when u feel alone or in despair, have u ever thought of the pple who sufferes more than all of us here in singapore... maybe human beings are still fragile at some point... however, sometimes, it is God who wants us to experience the life we are having now... perhaps there are really other pple in this world who suffers more than anyone of us... but they are still happily living in this world... erm... life is really a mystery yet we as human must live it to its fullest... ever thought of what would happened if the world is going to end tomorrow... wat are the things you might have lose if just a single bomb can kill a lot of pple... with terrorists growing rapidly, should we still be so materialistic? if anyone can tell me of their thoughts... feel free to drop a comment in the tagboard...
finally... this is just plain me typing crap i could think of... time to sign off... everyone take care... world peace...